Multitudes: blessing and curse
Today I'm writing about multitudes. This is a somehow more personal share about what that means to me.
You know when you are growing up and people ask you often, what do you want to be when you grow up? And of course, the response always varies. Sometimes, we as little kids answer from our gut and our pure innocence of wanting to be this or that, and sometimes we mimic everything around us, like for example what our mom, dad, teachers say we can be, or we aspire to be or do what our heroes and role models of our environment have instilled in us.
Fast forward in life, we are all grown up now and we are finally caught up with that point in time when we were once asked, what do you want to do when you grow up, who do you want to be?
I'm one of those grown-ups that is still wondering the childhood question, who do I want to be tomorrow when I'll be a little more grown-up? In all my adult years, my years of education, working, trying different paths whether as a career or interests, moving across continents and adjusting with new environments and new systems, in all these years the more I've learned the more confused I've become. I know this just sounded ridiculous. Let me explain what I mean by that. Two main quotes that always stay present with me are; the more I know, the more I know that I know nothing and the second one is Know Thyself. Did I make you even more confused? These two quotes that sound like an oxymoron go hand in hand. The more things I've learned in life, the deeper I go with my curiosity and thirst to learn as much as I can, because learning its simply one of the most exciting things. But the deeper I go the more I come out realizing that on a grand scheme I know nothing. Possession of knowledge, and pretending of having a clue about the mysteries of life and existence is a grand illusion to me. Knowing thyself, on the other hand, is a parallel journey that deepens with learning and experience. In these two parallel journeys and the hundred pathways in between, I've felt and have come to know the many multitudes of myself. It's not only one thing I want to be, it's not only one thing I want to do. My dreams and visions for myself in the grown-up world contributing to life range from being a healer, an environmentalist, an advocate of sacred plants, a wisdom keeper that learns to translate the invaluable lessons of our ancient cultures to the benefit of our modern life. I'm a creator, a storyteller, I'm someone who empowers the weak and helps them see their light. To conclude, I'm also someone who makes art and music for crowds and brings people together to the ecstasy of dancing. I might be dreaming and delirious but these are my multitudes. Is there a profession for these? More than an answer, for now, I'm sailing all these waves and finding increasing joy in each and every facet of my awakened being.
Back to these unusual times of crisis that we are now, I'm also finding incredible opportunities, space and silence around me to see inside and try to figure out how one can really integrate the multitudes and gifts. Is there such a thing? Or such a thing needs to simply be created?
I also feel this time now is a cocoon of transformation. A butterfly can come out of a crisis and extreme circumstances. At least, faith is here.
You know when you are growing up and people ask you often, what do you want to be when you grow up? And of course, the response always varies. Sometimes, we as little kids answer from our gut and our pure innocence of wanting to be this or that, and sometimes we mimic everything around us, like for example what our mom, dad, teachers say we can be, or we aspire to be or do what our heroes and role models of our environment have instilled in us.
Fast forward in life, we are all grown up now and we are finally caught up with that point in time when we were once asked, what do you want to do when you grow up, who do you want to be?
I'm one of those grown-ups that is still wondering the childhood question, who do I want to be tomorrow when I'll be a little more grown-up? In all my adult years, my years of education, working, trying different paths whether as a career or interests, moving across continents and adjusting with new environments and new systems, in all these years the more I've learned the more confused I've become. I know this just sounded ridiculous. Let me explain what I mean by that. Two main quotes that always stay present with me are; the more I know, the more I know that I know nothing and the second one is Know Thyself. Did I make you even more confused? These two quotes that sound like an oxymoron go hand in hand. The more things I've learned in life, the deeper I go with my curiosity and thirst to learn as much as I can, because learning its simply one of the most exciting things. But the deeper I go the more I come out realizing that on a grand scheme I know nothing. Possession of knowledge, and pretending of having a clue about the mysteries of life and existence is a grand illusion to me. Knowing thyself, on the other hand, is a parallel journey that deepens with learning and experience. In these two parallel journeys and the hundred pathways in between, I've felt and have come to know the many multitudes of myself. It's not only one thing I want to be, it's not only one thing I want to do. My dreams and visions for myself in the grown-up world contributing to life range from being a healer, an environmentalist, an advocate of sacred plants, a wisdom keeper that learns to translate the invaluable lessons of our ancient cultures to the benefit of our modern life. I'm a creator, a storyteller, I'm someone who empowers the weak and helps them see their light. To conclude, I'm also someone who makes art and music for crowds and brings people together to the ecstasy of dancing. I might be dreaming and delirious but these are my multitudes. Is there a profession for these? More than an answer, for now, I'm sailing all these waves and finding increasing joy in each and every facet of my awakened being.
Back to these unusual times of crisis that we are now, I'm also finding incredible opportunities, space and silence around me to see inside and try to figure out how one can really integrate the multitudes and gifts. Is there such a thing? Or such a thing needs to simply be created?
I also feel this time now is a cocoon of transformation. A butterfly can come out of a crisis and extreme circumstances. At least, faith is here.
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